Monday, November 4, 2013

Six

It has been six years since my mom was no longer alive.  Six years since I've seen her laugh, seen her smile, seen her to tell me to wipe of some of that makeup because I have such pretty skin.

Six years.

I really can't even process it. 

I haven't written a single thing about my mom on this blog since last year on this day.  And that's shocking, because I have certainly thought about her and wished she were around SO many times during wedding-related activities.  Maybe it was just too hard to put into words. 



 Every year, I think I'm going to do something special, or start a neat tradition.... and every year, it doesn't happen.

This year I get to work rough back-to-back shifts at work and sleep only 5 hours, which I'm sure will be excellent for my emotional state.

Today, just hug your moms for me.  Tell her you love her over the phone.  My mom may "know" that I love her, but it's really not the same as telling her.  I promise.

I knew in the back of my mind... that as the years passed, I would be further and further away from her memory.  That I would probably forget all the "little" things that she did that made her her.

I just didn't realize that it would still hurt so much.

11 Classy Comments:

grace and gratitude said...

sending you prayers and blessing from toronto <3

Sarah said...

Sending you prayers.

I actually have a post going live tomorrow about the difficult time I have been having lately. 6 years for me and I'm finding it gets harder each passing year.

Jeanie said...

I would love to hug my mom and tell her I love here, but I'm in the same situation you are. On December 21 it'll be seven years since she passed unexpectedly. So I can honestly say I know how you feel. I will add you and your mom to my prayer list. Hugs.

Meg @ write meg! said...

Big hugs to you, Sarah. xo

The Suburban H.I.T. said...

Hugs. Hugs. Hugs.

Andie said...

your post came at a time when I'm sort of annoyed with my mom... and it is a great reminder to me to call her and tell her I love her and get over what is annoying me.

Much love, sweet Sarah. Hugs!

K said...

I know this is so hard for you and I feel for you every time it comes around. I can't imagine going through life without your mom. Sending thoughts and prayers your way.

SMTree said...

Sarah,

I lost my mom 12 years ago this year. It's weird to move on with life without her, and I completely identify with missing the things that make her "her". I just had a bridal shower, and my mom's friends came. It was great to talk to them and listen to them share stories of her, remind me of things that I have forgotten or things I never knew.

Thank you for putting into words some of the things that I wish I could say.

Rachel said...

XOXO friend! I take my mom for granted far too often. Thanks for the reminder!

Leigh said...

Sending you a big hug!

RETA said...

I too share in your sufferings as I lost my own mother many years ago - but it still hurts. Please visit my BlogSpot. I hope the verses there will bring you comfort. RETA

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