Friday, August 2, 2013

The Hits Just Keep Coming

Today was supposed to be a lighthearted-post kinda day... a fun post detailing all the fun shenanigans I've been getting into while getting stuff done.

Yesterday was supposed to be a fun day with Mr. RH - we've been knee-deep in wedding plans and life plans and haven't taken out much time to do anything lately... but instead I was added to an email thread mid-conversation that mentioned obituaries, hotels, and funeral homes.

Of course, I hadn't recieved the notice that anyone had passed away, my dad was (I found out later) in a six-hour meeting and he didn't know either, so I had to call my baby brother and tell him that grandma had died - which of course had me dissolved in a puddle of incomprehensible tears while mumbling into the phone while sitting in Mr. RH's lap.

So much for kicking off August with a bang.

For the past several years, fall has had me holding my breath.  Tip-toeing around because my grandma, grandpa, and then mom died during consecutive falls - 2005, 2006, 2007.

If the phone rang during August through November of 2008-2011, I held my breath.  And I'm not gonna lie, I was not holding my breath yesterday.

I even said to Mr. RH... "does this mean she died?"  Because the email caught me so off guard and I just didn't know.


And honestly?  I am worked up because I know I can't write a fitting tribute to the person who raised the person who raised you. Because how can you?

You can't.

Instead, we say Thank You and hope it's enough.


Goodbye, sweet grandma.  You were the closest to sainthood of anyone I've ever met.

Until I see you again...

13 Classy Comments:

Meg @ write meg! said...

Oh, Sarah -- I am so very sorry. Sending big hugs and warm thoughts to you and your family.

Caitlin said...

So so sorry to hear about your Grandma. Sending prayers and positive thoughts your way as I know you are swamped with everything going on! <3

Claudz said...

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Thinking of you and your family. Sending prayers x x x

Lauren said...

Oh Sarah! So very very sorry for your loss. Thinking of you and your family

Mrs. Jones said...

Thinking of you. I'm so sorry for your loss. Grandma's truly are the best!

Laura C said...

Sending so much love your way. I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. Xoxo

Andie said...

I'm sorry Sarah... we are in the same boat at our house, Scott's uncle passed away last night.

Much sympathy dear friend and many hugs for you.

Jeanie said...

I'm very sorry for your loss. Grandmothers are indeed special. Hugs and Blessings.

Jennifer Rose said...

This made me tear up. I'm so so sorry. My maternal grandmother passed away before I was born but I like to think that if she was still here, we would have a close relationship like you and your grandma did. Lots of love to you. xoxo

Desiree Lynn said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. At least you have Mr. RH to squeeze you tight, yes? It's always a little easier when there's someone holding your hand. Hugs.

israxbelle said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sure you're strong enough to get through this and find the words. I am in the same boat as you, as I lost my grandmother a week ago. She died very suddenly in the hospital, and I have been head deep in the waters planning her funeral and managing a very large and opinionated family. Trying to find the words for her eulogy has been difficult. I am sending warm thoughts to you and your family. Stay strong and lean on someone.

Jessica @ Wanting Adventure said...

I am so sorry for your loss - and the way you found out! Goodness. Prayers for you and your family.

Sarah said...

I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. I hope you hold comfort in all of the sweet memories you made.

Thinking of you and your family.

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