So, I'm Catholic.
It's not something I talk about often (or ever?) on this blog, but it's true. I was baptized as an infant and grew up going to mass every single Sunday without fail.
I went to Catholic grade school where I went to mass every Monday and Friday (I think? I'm having a hard time remembering) morning.
I went to a Catholic college where I promptly proceeded to mass only 20 times the whole time I was there. Which is actually a real shame because not only are there a million different amazing chapels and churches around the Notre Dame area, but there are also dozens of very good priests there.
Anyway, present day. I'm, in my own mind, a terrible Catholic.
I skip mass frequently. When I'm able to go with my dad, I go. But when I have to work (I work 90% of the time when he goes to mass), I can only go to one obscure service. So, instead I often grab Panera and go into work to get caught up on paperwork. Or sneak into Mr. RH's apartment while he is sleeping and crawl into bed.
When I was in college, I rationalized skipping church with the fact that the dozens of "bonus masses" in Catholic elementary school were enough to sustain me.
I told Mr. RH on one of our first dates that it was important to me to raise my kids Catholic. But I really can't understand why I would say that, seeing as I can't even drag my own butt there now.
Mr. RH wasn't raised in a church at all, which really kind of blows my mind. I think that, in some ways, we can't even relate to one another because we're on such different planets about the whole thing.
Anyway, the purpose of this post was to confess that I suck at giving things up for Lent. That "giving" something up literally makes me want it so much more I will eat candy in a closet at midnight to pretend it didn't happen.
Instead, it turned into Bad Catholic Confessions.
I don't think there's any way to really wrap this up neatly.
So, anybody giving up anything fun for Lent? I might actually try and give up Coke. It just struck me that maybe I should try.
Happy Ash Wednesday, friends. Please tell me I'm not the only one who struggles with faith.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
So, I'm Catholic.